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Meghan McCainis opening up about suffering a miscarriage.
“I knew I was pregnant before I formally knew I was pregnant. My body told me in all the ways women are familiar with,” recalled McCain, whomarriedhusband Ben Domenech in November 2017. “It told me in the same ways that I was miscarrying.”
The daughter of late senator John McCain also called her miscarriage a “horrendous experience,” adding, “I would not wish it upon anyone.”
“The surprise of learning I was pregnant, many months ago now, swiftly turned to joy. With that joy came all the questions, plans and aspirations that every mother knows,” she shared, later writing, “For a brief moment, I had the privilege of seeing myself in the sisterhood of motherhood.”
(L-R) Ben Domenech and Meghan McCain.Meghan McCain/Instagram
However, when her miscarriage happened, McCain placed blame on herself, calling her body “a rock-strewn wasteland in which no child may live.”
“This is my fault,” she said. “I blamed myself. Perhaps it was wrong of me to choose to be a professional woman, working in a high-pressure, high-visibility, high-stress field, still bearing the burden of the recent loss of my father and facing on top of that the arrows that come with public life.”
McCain added, “I blamed my age, I blamed my personality. I blamed everything and anything a person could think of, and what followed was a deep opening of shame.”
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Revealing that the loss occurred a few weeks ago, McCain wrote that she will always have “love for my child.”
The star concluded her op-ed with a sweet message about her late father, whodied last Augustat age 81.
“When my father passed, I took refuge in the hope that someday we would be united in the hereafter,” she said. “There is my father — and he is holding his granddaughter in his hands.”
source: people.com
