Selling SunsetalumMaya Vanderis opening up about the two gruelingpregnancy lossesshe faced in the last year.
Despite knowing deep down she couldn’t have prevented the losses, Vander tells PEOPLE exclusively that she wishes she listened to her gut as she still can’t help but put the blame on herself.
“It helps me knowing I’m not alone and that it’s not my fault because I still feel guilty to this day,” the 40-year-old shares while discussing the1060 real estate app.“I should have known better.”
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When Vander started to feel less movement amid her pregnancy, she scheduled a private ultrasound that showed Mason had a perfectly fine heartbeat. At the time, Vander says she relaxed having this information but admits something still didn’t sit right.
Although Vander still struggles with the pain from the losses, she’s hoping to add another sibling alongside son Aiden, 3, and daughter Elle, 2.
Vander and her husband David Miller have already begun trying to add another little one to their family, which she says is helping her through the grieving process.
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While the Israeli native hopes to have good news sooner than later, she’s beginning the next phase of her life away from the Netflix series and is keeping busy with her kids and career — made easier with the new 1060 app that allows her to show and see listings while connecting with real estate agents virtually from all over the world.
“I’ve been really busy in Miami,” Vander says. “I have my group. I grew to six people on my team. I’ve been focusing on the market here, trying to establish my Maya Vander group in Florida and it’s been really great. I’ve been really busy with the kids.”
“Walking away fromSelling Sunsetwas not an easy decision, but it was the right decision. It’s an end of a chapter,” she adds. “I believe that every end has a new beginning, and my beginning is my family in Miami and my work.”
source: people.com
